Don't Settle First

Been soo very busy lately. Everything is 'urgent' and 'important'. Sigh. In the midst of my tied up schedule, I still get to curik some precious time to use Facebook for a while. FB-ing again huh Chel? Great. But seriously, sometimes FB does help to motivate people. Check out what I found from FB:

Let's make a checklist whether this thing actually goes to me:

Young lady                        Check

Single lady                        Check

Loves Jesus                     Check

So it does goes to me...hehe...

By the way, Yoga finally approved of me being a girl today. Hah! I am soo on my way to becoming a real laydeh. Thanks to my new haircut. Gonna upload one picture of me with my new hair soon. And don't I look laavleh~ *That's what people have been telling me anyway, totally not self-absorbing*

Gooda Newza :P

I am deliriously happy. Umm, no... that's not exactly the right word. I'm overjoyed? Jubilant? Over the moon? Ah, it seems like all those words are such an understatement. Maybe I should just say no words can describe how I feel right now.

It's about our elective posting. Our uni have some kinda MoU with Osaka University and they gave 4 spots to be filled by those who want to do their elective posting there. No more, no less. So for someone like me who had been wanting to do my elective posting in Japan, we had to go for an interview, in groups, with the deputy dean, to see who deserves the spot. Darn it, twas such a fierce competition. I even have doubts (yeah, me and my doubts..ugh!) that our group can get it. But then I gave myself a pep talk and kept praying. And my Dad proved my doubts wrong. Today I got a message from one of my group member that we're going to Osaka next year, baby! My goodness, do I hear a hallelujah or what!?

Picture courtesy of flickr. 

We'll be going in winter by the way. Can't really see any sakura blooming in that season of the year (which has always been one of my dreams when I finally get to go to Japan one day). But hey, no fuss about elective posting applications and free accommodation for a month? I'm just too blessed to complain. Hehe.

My next mission --> Pass all my postings in fourth year and I'm good to go. Yosshhh!

Mark 11:24 (NIV)

"Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours." J

Falling for the Bully

I scolded him, annoyed him, agitated him, ordered him around, asked told him to redo his work from scratch because none of his work got anything to do with what we were doing. Sigh. I'm a bit of a perfectionist so I always want the things that I do to be perfect. Even if it can't be perfect, at least it has to be up to my level of acceptance and I'm telling you, that level is freakingly high. I admit this is one of my most annoying trait. Sorry for never mentioning this. Yet he fell for me.

Oh my sweet Lord baby Jesus Son of God, what on earth is so attractive about a bully?? I don't understand. Really, I don't. I may be shamelessly declare myself to be 'awesome' when I'm with my friends, but honestly, I never really find myself to be an attractive female. Not in looks nor personality. Which what makes me even more perturbed when someone would openly confess that he fell for me, of all people, after I practically bullied him! 

When a person likes someone, shouldn't he/she be giving the other person hints or something first? At least I'll be prepared for something like that. I'd even give an appropriate respond if I like the person back too. But that confession...it all happened so fast I never saw it coming. Hit me like a 4 ton oil tank trucker, which resulted in a super duper massively huge explosion! That explosion particularly affects my emotional state. I'm currently in a state of bafflement, and I don't think I like it. What am I supposed to do now?  T_T

Happpy Birthday me!

Well waddya know, I just turned 22 a few days ago. Woot woot!

I didn’t really expect to be able to celebrate, let alone frolic on my big day, thanks to our pretty tight schedule. *Killjoy!* Even the night before my birthday we had something going on, something academic and entirely too unawesome even for a medical student’s liking. But hey, Yoga, Ee Theng and Kamini, being thoughtful as always, managed to kidnap me right after the boring event and tried their best to make the night to be quite a birthday celebration. They said, never in a million years would they allow me to sit in my room all alone (although I do have a roommate) on my birthday. Aww...isn't that just flattering?

It was kinda late for us to go for dinner, and Sibu being Sibu, most of the shops were closed before 10. Or maybe 9, seeing that we drove to a few different places but they were all locked and bolted already. It was only 9.30pm. Heh. We wind up dining at this fancy restaurant called The Ark (or maybe it was Arch) which had a really nice ambience and the foods were scrumptiousss.

Above  Oh, that's just Ee Theng, me and Yoga, trying to be photogenic in the dark. Too bad Kamini's not in the picture.
Below  One of the dishes we ordered. Too hungry that we don't even bother taking pictures after the first dish.

They got me a birthday cake and bought me this 'pure crystal pendant made with Swarovski element' which looks absolutely lovely! Aww...they're just so sweet! *sob sob* Tell you what, even if they lied to me (which I doubt they would) and the pendant is not exactly a pure crystal and it’s just tied to some nickel chain, I’m still gonna wear it proudly because never have I seen them so exuberantly thrilled when they gave me the gift box. Obviously they went through a whole lot of brainstorming to make sure I can bask in the glory of being a birthday girl (even though there was still a few hours before I become one). Uh-huh, it’s the thought that counts!

Above            Yup, that's my pendant. Fit for a 22-year-old..hehe

Below, left    Will you look at that, even great is understatement! 

Below, right  Some of the nonsense things they wrote to goof on me.

Oh, I got a few other birthday presents from my family and other friends too..hehe.. My best friends (I actually have a number of other friends who are also very dear to me) and a few other friends that I didn't really keep in touch with also texted and called just to wish me happy birthday. My life is surrounded by lots and lots of people who loves me, and I don’t think I mind growing old each day now. As long as I have these people to grow old with me. That way, none of them will diss me and call me ‘that old annoying granny’ because they’re old too. Hah!

P/S: Not much picture eh? Most pictures were taken using Yoga's phone and he still hasn't give me the pics yet.
        Hmmh...

Grumpy Chel

Gosh, I wish I can blog about something fun… but c’est la vie. I’d be dead if I never face any problem in my entire life. Reality bites people, don't they? 

This week has been one very frustrating week. Of course I face problems every day, that’s just one of the normal routine in a life of a typical human being. But this week is just bad, filled with all sorts of problems which are better left unblogged. Everything just went wrong in every possible way. And just when I thought there couldn’t be anything worse than what I’ve been through, another bad news comes right at me and slaps me in the face. Hard.

I pretended like the problems would just magically blow off. I even tried closing my eyes in hopes that everything would just go away once I open them again. Yea, sometimes I do that when I feel like I really can’t take it anymore. But news flash girl, problems don’t just vanish into thin air unless you face them. I know that. Of course I know that, but I still hope such thing is plausible. I’m feeling very gloomy at the moment. And grumpy. Hate hate hate it when I’m being grumpy! I really wish feelings can be help, but it can’t.

Then again, here are the things that's helping me from falling apart currently:

• "You are tempted in the same way all other human beings are. God is faithful. He will not let you be tempted any more than you can take. But when you are tempted, God will give you a way out so that you can stand up under it." (1 Corinthians 10:13)

• Pray girl, pray. The One you're praying to literally created the universe, what makes you think He can't help you with these?  J

• One day, I’m gonna face an even bigger problem, and then I’ll remember this moment and laugh at how devastated I feel right now when I actually thought this is the biggest problem in the universe.

Trying my best to stay optimistic. I know things will get better after this. Just have a lil faith, girl. He will bring me to pass.